weee,

budo grading todayys got a brown belt :) weeeee

kenny (aka kiki) is the AWESOME

LOL kiki and luke came over

i think luke was jealous about the amount of excessive flirting that me and my sister was doing :)

muhahahahahahhahahaha he is gorgeous :) luke called me gorgeous and i think i have to give my sister a makeover

she needs to look more prettiful

i heart all of our friends

scotty (aka squirt) is in coffs harbour atm; he is ALSO teh awesome but atm not as awesome as kiki

umm; just had a rum shot, went down the wrong way and almost made me throw up LOL

thats cool tho

um um um; just finished a 7 day close quarter combat course. wee

now i have a WHOLE week to catch up on all my school work

maybe wednesday night we can do something, or even on saturday; that would be cool

oooh kiki bday is the 20th July;

BUDO dinner on teh 21st july

i think we're going :)

weee only one day without budo then monday night its training again

thats cool

anywayl we are squirts rose :)

and kiki loves us

LOVEyou

xoxox

hmmms..where is my boy? blah blogging is pretty shitty now. i have nothing to say. its the 21st and i went to see the killers ^^ and snow patrol on the 19th it was awesome!!

and and i got a laptop!! lol yeah on the 19th as well!, its frikken amazing, i am so in love. =) mms but but i am sleepy and i should really be doing ancient ><


love love

hmmms..where is my boy?

bahahaha, the killers rock my world. my gosh were they FUCKING hot! wahh i want to start my own blog. woooh..i should start that some time soon. hehehehes. mmsss yeahsss i think i will tonight. well my room is painted and all i have to do now is organise it. =) mms that should be fun even tho i only have like what 3 more days to go till school opens. and i still need school shirts. arghhs and school shoes..WTF am i gunna do?? >< i want a boy too. and OMG there were SO many hot boys at the killers..wahh i so wanted to hook-up but like i mean i didnt even know any of them so ew. but yeahs. hahha. mms i love moshing!! i forgot how much i love concert..you know the whole two times i ever went =)

sighs where is the boy that makes me happy?? wahh i have bruising ><

anyhoos love love.

So, interesting week..lol..hardly..went shopping today spent $50 on a dress, tho technically it came free. lol. i think i need more credit even tho i had like $30 on january the 1st...someone made me spend money on them =) but is all good. i am not tired, tho am craving a really really good coffee. gawd, ate SO muchies today. if i get fat soon i'll know why. and these days ive been so tired. wahh my body is SO out of whack. tehehehe. anyhooos am loving razorblade kiss by HIM. lols and anything by spoken. wooh. wish i could go out on tuesday =( believe me, i really want to go out. am going out on thursday tho. a nice little trip to the city with my brother and my sister. wooh. hahahaha. OOOOOhhh city was fun last friday, bought 3 tops...yay!! =P anyhooos...am waiting for this boy to reply too meeee..wish he would hurry up so i could talk to him. sighss..boyss..anyhoos lots of love.
xxx

well, just thought id mention lucy..cuz she is so cool and NOT ON >< you should be on lucy, so i can see what time we're going out 2moro...and and and yeah....i just wish he was on...but but i cant understand all this...


lols

ok..

bye!

oh gosh, the night air is chilly and it makes me cold..i can't stop thinking about him, tho its all wrong..and he didnt reply to me! i felt cut and i know hes interested..but am i?i cant do this...wen did life get so complicated..oh wait it was always complicated..but it sucks now..what do i do? i cant even talk to anyone..cuz i dont know how to say it...fuck it seriously...i hate it...i always get myself into crap situations..what is this meant to mean? all these feelings....and omg..he asked me if i had a bf...thats so leading to another question.. grrrrrrrrrrrr boys

oh gosh, coming home is like crazy dude. i can't believe im home, back to reality! i hate it but love it at the same time, i have my bed which is yay! but uh everything else is like crazy. wahhh i want to be back in malaysia and have my cousins and my family and not a care in the world...but yay new year! its a whole new year and and i can't understand it....i have to call diana soon..must do that..lol mmms, ok i shall bbl...

arghhhh fucking fucking, BITCh, wtf, how dare she take my clothes and then bitch about me! fuck YOU, Fuckin they were the ones who were home and that, and they got coffee! and and and and they are FUCKHEADS
just cuz she wants to go out, means she can wear whatever FUCKING clothes she wants, it pisses me off no end. and and she wants to borrow stuff, FUCK YOU, she always goes out and leaves me with a fucking mess. i mean wtf?
FUCK FUCK FUCK, i am SO pissed!!!
fucking cow, ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

mms boys are confusing ones arent they. this ones worst than a girl, as in he cant take anything on face value. i actually do care about him still, and i highly doubt that would ever change. i miss him, funnily enough. pretty gay but meh. silly boy thinks im talking to him cuz there is no-one else to talk to...well that is like so not true, well it is kinda, but yeahs. mmmhmms i am also bored which i guess was another reason i decided to talk to him, kinda like with the other one.. i feel sad and stupid he says "Do even know who i am?" i reply with "umm..(insert name)" he replys "Wat skool do i go to?" i say "My school. Stop being an idiot!"
ah how gay mmms i love ex-bfs they are so fun and unpredictable. you gotta love them.
anyhoos i got mew mascara today; i am happy.
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wonder if lucy will read this...
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